I went out and bought a pack of 3 HPTs. I showed my husband, who then got a bit upset. He wants me to promise him I won’t take a test earlier then the date I’m supposed to. Uh, obviously he doesn’t know me too well. We women wanting children will pee on any stick, anywhere, any time. I said I couldn’t promise him. That made him a bit mad, but I’m being honest. Now I’m scared to POAS. I know, I’m supposed to have hope, faith, and positive thinking. I can tell I’m struggling with everything, because I’m wanting to go back into my “cave”. Hide from everyone. Don’t talk about anything that has to do with kids. I can’t watch tv shows or movies that mention “mommy” or show little babies, otherwise I’ll cry. The cave protects me from what I fear.
Right now I’m watching Superman Returns. Louis Lane had a kid with Superman from sleeping with him one night. WTH? Obviously, she’s not 40. Today at work I think I googled every site under the sun regarding taking HPTs after 5 day transfers. Numerous people got positives 5dp5dt. Gulp. Do I dare?